Happy New Years!

Happy New year everyone 

As is typical for me this is a day late and a dollar short.  Y’all know I’ve been sick the last few days and so I was the first to fall last night, although Gabby and Paul ended up asleep early too. The spirit was willing but the flesh was… exhausted. We did get a couple of rounds of Exploding Kittens in and eat an entire thing of spinach dip, so it wasn’t a total loss.

2017 was a year of changes for us. Most notably Paul’s career path taking an unexpected turn, and the adjustments that brought to nearly every part of our life. While it hasn’t been without it’s stressful moments, I couldn’t be prouder of how we’ve come together to face it all head-on instead of letting it drive a wedge between us. Cheesy as it is, we’ve always viewed marriage as teamwork, and even under pressure we are not that couple that keeps score. We kept our cool, did what needed done, and did our best to support each other along the way(and kick each other’s ass when needed).

I’m hoping 2018 brings a little less change and a little more peace. I want to streamline, simplify, and generally make life run a little smoother. I want to feel more on top of things and less like I am just barely keeping it all together. And I want to work on feeling a little less guilty when I do drop those balls that inevitably will, because it’s just not possible to give 100% everywhere at every time.

I hope 2018 sees more of you at our table and in our lives where we can. Friendship is so important and this past year seeing so many of you was what made the year feel like one of our best ever despite the really difficult moments.

Thank you for being there with us in person and in spirit 

Ups and Downs

Yesterday was really, REALLY rough. The kind of day where I ended up locking myself in my room and crying, because Mal was being “challenging” as hell and Scarlett was whiny and I was sick and it was just a shitty, shitty day. I felt like a total failure as a parent and then felt guilty because it all had made me so unavailable to my big kids, who have been nothing short of amazing.

I think the universe knows when you are at your breaking point because for the first time since Paul left for Canada, everyone slept through the night last night. Even more shocking, the first “Mommy, it’s time to get up” didn’t come until 6:30am this morning. Mal woke up in a good mood, and there has been a minimum of bickering between him and Scarlett. Still sick, but it’s just a cold, nothing terrible, medication and hot broth are keeping me functional.

Overall today is looking a lot better, and I am looking forward to spending some quality time with my big kids (and Paul!) tonight ringing in the new year.

Parenting is hard y’all, so hard. One day at a time