I feel so mentally overwhelmed right now I can’t think. Whether it’s depression, stress, or a shaken-not-stirred emotional cocktail of both I couldn’t tell you. I just feel like the weight of the world is on me right now and I can’t for the life of me figure out why.

All things considered, things are ok here. The divorce is still dragging on, but mostly things are calm at home. Christmas is coming up, and I just got back from the most amazing experience, which I’ll be posting about later. (Twitter and Facebook friends already knew, the rest of you will have to wait!) There is nothing going on that is worth brooding over, yet for some reason I am, and I suspect I know why.

My blog is annoying the ever-living shit out of me.

Yeah, call out the guys in the white jackets, Sara is becoming depressed over an intangible monster of her own creation.

I have had the hardest time with my blogging since my divorce started. Partly because of everything I couldn’t blog about(legally), and partly because those things-that-shall-not-be-mentioned ARE the biggest things in my life right now. The censorship has stifled my creativity, and it’s making me resent the hell out of my blog. Not to mention I decided back in October to do a massive redesign, and still haven’t touched it.

Who I am now, and what my blog currently is, just don’t fit anymore. Square peg, round hole, and all that jazz.

I’ve got to kick my own ass a bit and fix this. Fish or cut bait, shit or get off the pot. Get off your ass and do something, bitch!

I can’t kick-start my blog with the mental bloggy to-do list hanging over my head. I’ve got to work on my redesign, pronto. I’ve got to catch up on those PR goodies I’ve been sent. I’ve got to respond to the 50 or so PR emails weighting down my box, unread. I’ve got to get my omg-where-did-it-go-and-htf-am-I-a-PR2??? back up.

I’m at rock bottom with my blog, the only way to go now is up.

 

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I didn’t get to make it for Thanksgiving, but my Christmas dinner will be an Oven Ready Jenny-O whole turkey. I swear these people saw me coming, because this is about at stupid-proof as you get! The turkey goes from freezer to oven with no thawing or seasoning needed. It is pre-sealed in a cooking bag, and the pop-up turkey button tells you when it’s done. Pick one up for Christmas dinner, because with all that assembling and wire-cutting to do Christmas Day, the last thing you need to worry about is screwing up dinner!

Thanks to HarperCollins for providing me with a copy of The Mental Floss History of the World by Erik Sass and Steve Wiegand. If high school history class had been even half this funny, I would have paid a lot more attention! This book will give you tons of useful history trivia to spout off at holiday parties while keeping you thoroughly entertained.

5 Comments on Cleaning Out the Closet, Bloggy-Style

  1. Summer
    December 16, 2008 at 10:42 pm (8 years ago)

    It’s gotta be a struggle going through so much and having forced censorship. (((HUGS)))

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  2. SUnshine
    December 16, 2008 at 10:43 pm (8 years ago)

    I’m blog is annoying me too and I don’t have a fraction of the drama. Sometimes I think it’s just a dry patch.

    Hang in there!

    PS) Being depressed about my grandpa dying has brought people in by the truckload. I think there is a certain degree of rubbernecking in blogville, they like it better when you’re upset. It’s kind of weird, actually.

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  3. mimipz5wjj
    December 17, 2008 at 4:19 pm (8 years ago)

    Hope things are looking up. You’ve been in my thoughts….

    Hope things settle a bit after the silly season and you get your groove back!

    Reply
  4. Christina
    December 17, 2008 at 9:10 pm (8 years ago)

    I really hope things will be turning around for you soon. If you need to vent, feel free to e-mail me. Or start a private, invite-only blog. But please invite me. 😉

    Reply

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